No One. Poem by Dislocated Heart

this is what i want.
i finally realized.
i wanna be alone in this world..
but why?
i puzzle myself, in this... struggle.
i want to be better.
but i push myself down.
i wanna see the world..
but i lock myself in my room.
i pretend like everything is fine.
i act all normal and say what you want to hear.
i make you happy.
and cheer you up when your down.
what am i?
i try to find myself as i move towards the black hole.
what am i doing?
killing myself.
i know it.
i feel it.
but no one is gonna stop me.