Punishment Selfishness Poem by Dakota Ellerton

I lay on ground,
staring at the sky.
I am drunk.
The worlds are spinning,
my realities are clashing.
I am nothing, no one.
Simply, I just am with insignifcance.
My soul had parted my body long ago,
leaving a hollow emptiness.
I watch the world grow around me,
children laughing, living.
What I wouldn’t give for childhood.
To remember the simplicities I once had,
the innocence I once possessed.
Before my heart tormented,
before my body abused.
When life had value.
Such simple mindedness,
yet so peacful.
I am almost jealous of that way of life,
of life itself.
Something I no longer strive for,
as I have already taken my life.
The memories of such a thing,
fade away with each dropp that hits my lips.
Am I that lost?
I have done nothing wrong,
I have made peace with that.
Still, life prefers to condem me,
to punish me.
The scars grow thicker on my body,
the pain bleeds deeper.
My mind wanders at night,
and leads my body to follow.
Have I still not suffered enough?
All I wanted was honesty,
love.
I corrupted lives,
stealing hearts when I pleased.
Like a demon,
I showed no mercy.
I am deserving of the punishment I recieve.