Xelam Kan

Sanity Or Insanity - Poem by Xelam Kan

Is this sanity or insanity
to wish a death in obscurity?
Death that might bring calm and ease
As my life deserted by joys and peace.
Life that seems in a solemn attire
But for me all her charm and glory
Busted and melted in despair.

Once for me it was a lily in bloom
Like a rainbow and floating clouds
Nothing but a sweet Nature's boon,
And dawned my morn with glistening dews
And glamoured each Eve with Venus` view.

Ah! But now all these engulfed in gloom,
An insignificant soul I turned to be
Wrinkled and freckled,
Gripped by pangs and pains.
Hard to bear this jealousy and hate anymore,
Come O peaceful death and cease my wailing breaths.
Now for me;
The union of joy and pain,
Sorrows and shame,
Love and lust,
Caring and fear
Cheers and tears
Pride and prejudice
All meaningless, all senseless.

Topic(s) of this poem: insanity

Poet's Notes about The Poem

The display of morbid intellect, often gets out of control...Words become barren and thoughts sterile.

Comments about Sanity Or Insanity by Xelam Kan

  • Bri Edwards (1/16/2015 10:20:00 PM)

    hmmm? i haven't even looked at the body of the poem yet, and i see in some comments death wish. anything to do with you recommending Jude the Obscure to me? ? thanks again for that, though i think i'd rather NOT read it a second time; i have read Robinson Crusoe 3 times and The Old Man and the Sea twice.

    i sort of have a death wish, but not for anytime really soon. i DO think it would be nice to die before age 76, as i already feel sometimes like i'm using up more resources than i deserve, including food, water, shelter, and medical care. my 66 years on Earth are enough for me. let me have a look at this poem!

    oh, now i see the poet's note: morbid intellect! maybe you and i are BOTH too INTELLECTUAL? ? :) bri
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    ok, i read it. yes! obscurity.

    Pride and prejudice? i think that was/is a novel.
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    Hard to bear this jealousy and hate anymore, ............are you the one who is jealous and hateful, or are others jealous and hateful of you? ? ! either way, it doesn't sound very pleasant.
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    some of MY thoughts on SUICIDE:

    cutting, hanging/choking, drowning, poisoning/overdose, electrocution, starvation/dehydration, car accident, jumping to the pavement, being blown-to-pieces! there are so many ways! some less unpleasant than others.
    i DON'T really want to kill myself. i'd much rather have a painless, peaceful death, one that allows me to say goodbye to those important to me (including some PH friends) , and a death which does NOT cause much worry, or inconvenience for others! i'm not asking much, am i? :)
    though the lyrics of one old song says suicide is painless, don't count on it! and it can easily be BOTCHED/not successful, leaving various people MORE unhappy than they had been. yes, suicide is DANGEROUS!

    i feel people with suicidal thoughts should be listened to and counseled, and helped to make the right decision. unfortunately most counselors are probably not legally or ethically allowed to support a person's desire to die by suicide; NOT in the u.s.a. anyway. I’ve heard that at least one European country is a LOT different. i FEEL THAT SUICIDE SHOULD BE LEGAL, AND AIDED after careful counseling. BUT, perhaps medication(s) , and other life-supports, including counseling could change a person’s life enough that they would change their mind.
    Thanks for sharing “your”? life/death thoughts with us. bri :)

    i vote that you are SANE! but you, like many, are burdened by life, and you want some relief which death (hopefully) would supply. if you die first, send me a postcard if there is a post office where you end up.
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  • (5/22/2013 6:14:00 AM)

    the despair is obvious....sad hue is all over...well depicted! (Report) Reply

  • Stevie Taite (3/9/2013 3:00:00 PM)

    You are reaching a time in your life when muse like this dances with your darkest thoughts. Thoughts of death and melancholy. This poem resounds with a personal sadness and reveals a different side to you. Very moving Yoda! X x x x (Report) Reply

  • (3/9/2013 12:50:00 PM)

    When life is aimless, when pains prevails with out any gain and when sorrows can not be beared any more one have to wish for death, when one feels that there no end to the life he longs for the end, there is a dim line between sanity and insanity and hard to distinguish them, a great write and a very deep poem really like it,
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  • (3/9/2013 8:43:00 AM)

    Between sanity and insanity there is a small divide and that`s of pain and pleasure at times.
    We are after all to say LIFE IS A JOURNEY TO DEATH though a death wish is unwarranted. Although none may like to take it as it is I tell you Gusher there is nothing after death whether it is man or microbe.
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  • Shahzia Batool (3/9/2013 7:57:00 AM)

    i have been half in love with easeful death...and called him in many a mused rhyme....these are the lines by Keats your poem made me think of. Your poem is good one! ! ! (Report) Reply

  • Musfiq Us Shaleheen (3/8/2013 8:55:00 PM)

    all pains and emotions are twist with love.... very nice imagery song of death....desireable.....very powerful and insightful poem.... sir... (Report) Reply

  • (3/8/2013 8:07:00 PM)

    the duality of life is meaningless in the deathbed, but the last fight and breathe between life and death must be enjoyable, the way people open their eyes, respond and surrender their souls to the nature. Good thought! a beautiful poem! 10 (Report) Reply

  • Poetheart Morgan (3/8/2013 5:29:00 PM)

    All this pain is mixed with love
    Pangs that dont go eway and
    turn you in nothing and nothing you cant not be -
    cradle you as a child -
    and put you to sleep -
    bring insanity and you still sleeps -
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  • Ellias Anderson Jr. (3/8/2013 12:35:00 PM)

    This poem is so meaningful and rich. really hard to explain! well done! (Report) Reply

  • Valsa George (3/8/2013 9:41:00 AM)

    Life is invariably one of joy and sorrow, acceptance and rejections, victories and defeats and they take turns! Our sorrows can easily pave way for joys. So hope for the best and wait with patience! The Death wish should be replaced by a zest for life! A poignant write! ! (Report) Reply

  • (3/8/2013 8:52:00 AM)

    Very well written.It comes across in a spiritual way, as if all our human desires and thoughts come to nothing when reaching our end. I don't find it morbid at all, well done! (Report) Reply

  • Tim Vallie (3/8/2013 3:25:00 AM)

    Very well written. Invokes clear sadness in a strong manner. I truly enjoyed your use of imagery and strong emotion throughout the poem. A pleasure to read. (Report) Reply

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Poem Submitted: Friday, March 8, 2013

Poem Edited: Saturday, January 17, 2015

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