Searching Poem by Josh Burnett

I feel so hurt because I'm waiting for you to show yourself to me.
I'm so lost and alone that I no longer have the courage to believe.
I try to look up and give a smile but it's so hard to break free.
My mind is exhausted and my heart feels like it has no beat.
I've already got what I want but I don't have what I need.
I try to open my eyes and look but it's so hard to see.
It's like I'm living a nightmare and I cannot dream.

For you I'll always keep on searching,
And I'll give up my entire being.
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking.
It's only what I'm feeling.
It will always be something I'm needing.
That something will always be my healing,
And the pain has already started killing.

Thoughts run through my head and I know that you could be mine.
I lie in a four wall cell thinking through the whole night.
My cheeks turn cold and my eyes tear as I try to fight.
Everything I see is wrong and everything I feel is not right.
Where is that star that's suppose to be my guiding light?
I try to hold on to the promises with all my might.
I dream of you and I try to hold on to it tight.

For you I'll always keep on searching,
And I'll give up my entire being.
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking.
It's only what I'm feeling.
It will always be something I'm needing.
That something will always be my healing,
And the pain has already started killing.

It slips right out of my mind and you are lost.
The dreams I have is the only thing that I've got.
I am sitting here with tearful emotions being tossed.
I wish you were here but you are not.
I tried so hard to fight the doubt off.
I gave up everything and in return lost a lot.
So I had to pull out all of the stops.

For you I'll always keep on searching,
And I'll give up my entire being.
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking.
It's only what I'm feeling.
It will always be something I'm needing.
That something will always be my healing,
And the pain has already started killing.

From love I begin to fade away.
In the emotions I cannot stay.
I bend down on my knees and pray,
And I cry out for it everyday.
That eventually you will come my way.
The lack of knowing is why I'm afraid,
And it's the price I have to pay.

For you I'll always keep on searching,
And I'll give up my entire being.
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking.
It's only what I'm feeling.
It will always be something I'm needing.
That something will always be my healing,
And the pain has already started killing.