The Killing Kind Poem by Jennifer Sol

With a sunrise the world smiles at me
Here’s happiness, use it well she says
And with a sad smile I reply
It’s the thought that counts…
But I won’t be needing that today
Tears flow down my face
Happiness comes in many forms
But for me…it comes in only one
He is the one that makes me happier
Than anything else…
But the world isn’t ready to give up
With a sweet smile from a child
Here’s encouragement, take it please
Once again with a sad smile I reply
No, I can’t…there’s only one thing I want
And that you can’t give me…
I don’t want to take it by force…
I want him to want me too…
A single tear rolled down her face
Oh, honey…here take this at least she sighs
And the rain poured down soaking me
The tears of the world mixing with mine
I raised my arms and twirled
Thank you…for the sympathy I whispered
Her face brightens and she sends me a rainbow
Dear girl, you’re not refusing this, a pretty girl
Like you doesn’t deserve the pain she says
I look at her with sadness in my eyes and say
Well, if you insist…
She replies, yes I insist, take this rainbow
And brighten me with your smile just this once
I give her a half hearted smile
I tried…I say as a tear escapes my eyes
She sends the warmth of the sun to give me a hug
You love him, this I can see…
As much as it disheartens me to say this…
This kind of love is the killing kind
But you are strong…I believe in you dear
Now go and embrace the day
Love him if you wish…
Don’t be afraid to let him know
Just know that if you do…
You may not get the response you want
And with that she left
Leaving me to digest her words…
Love…of…the…killing…kind…