The Me I Use To Know Poem by Lil Sutton

Wondering where she has gone
The reflection in the mirror is nothing but an empty shell
She speaks, she breaths but feels little
Where did the spark go
How did the joy lose its way
Why does contentment live there no longer

Last time I saw any sign of her was in the month of may
She was different but still recognisable
There were still glimpses of happiness and belief.

Now all I see is
Vacant eyes, vacant heart
I miss the girl I once was
I lost her along the way
Unknowingly I relied on others to make me feel whole
Not their fault, that is mine

Talking to myself in my head
A game of self torture I cant seem to stop
I know I am lost
Seeking to be found
I am buried somewhere beneath this skin
Looking for the me I use to know

My daughter asks…why don’t you laugh anymore?
Why don’t you hug me like you use to?
Questions I hate to be asked but I have no answer for her
I just try to do a better job

If you know how to find the me I use to know
Please tell her I’m looking for her
And she is dearly missed