This Dilemma Poem by JOJO PESCADOR

Here I am again staring at nothing
Wishing that these things are not happening
I wish I am that sunset I am staring
When I feel gloomy and when I feel everything seems to be wrong
I could hide behind that beautiful mountain
So that no one could see me cryin'
Why do I need to feel this
Why do I need to experience this and
Why do I need to be in this
The answer to those questions?
I think no one could ever give
I want to call your name
I want to share these feelings to you
I want the right person who could lean an ear
A right person who could give the right pieces of advice
But whenever I think of you I'm afraid that you will just refuse
I'm afraid that you will run away and blame me with these problems
I'm afraid….. yes I am afraid…
Help me get over in this
I wish I could be sunrise
That when this ends I could still show my face and I could still form a beam into my face.