Uh, What? Poem by Heart of Ice Die Die Die

What am I supposed to do
now that all the best parts of me
are gone?
I'm nothing,
like a grape
left out too long.
Soggy and sour.
Allowing my anger to slip up
and now it feels like
no one wants me
And it's the truth.
All the people who used to care
found someone else
or don't want me around anymore.
The curses they threw
still sting.
Yet,
they didn't say anything to me.
Maybe that's why
it hurt so bad.
Because they just really don't care.
So much hurt
caused by so little.
Why does he insist
on ridiculing
and abusing me to tears?
I've done nothing
NOTHING
to deserve this treatment.
But he's pushed me
to the very edge.
Blade to skin
and nothing holding me back.
His insults
ringing in my ears.
Can't decide,
so much at stake.
Why, why
won't I just give up?
You've proved your point,
just cut,
I argue with no one at all.
You know you'll feel better.
But I won't.
Just screaming and screaming,
it seems like
that's all he can do.
I didn't do anything wrong
so he makes faults appear
out of thin air.
As if I don't hurl enough
all on my very own.
Tear, tear.
Nobody cares emo girl.
Just go die.

Feb.-11-10