What Healing Looks Like Poem by My song Resound

Been wanting to die so I sleep too much
Been wanting to cry so I laugh a lot
Want to be alone but I'm scared of such
Want to be someone when I'm anything but

And all this time, feel like I'm missing out
On all my life, it just passed by
Time stands still, and I might be stuck
But the world goes on and I'm left behind

So here's to all the sleepless nights
Here's to all those forced fake smiles
Here's to all the lonely ones
Here's to the one who's been left behind

When you get high like you're in the clouds and nothing felt better
When you are down, six feet under and the madness kicks in
When you imagine that a brighter future is about to begin
When you are back to the start and do it all over again

Cause I feel like crap, like I'm holding back, but I have nothing to give
Everything I am, and all I was, is useless, vain and frigid
When the world just stops but nothing ever really does
I fall into my dreams, hoping reality is paused