What Hurts The Most Part 2 Poem by ESPN CHICK

What hurts the most is saying that I'm alright when I'm really not
And it hurts cause no one else even notices the tears behind my eyes
All the pain is filled up from head to toe and nobody else knows
Everyone thinks I'm doing fine

But what hurts the most is putting on that broken smile
And pretending that the smile is real
It hurts so bad when all the people around me just walk on by
And then I'm stuck there feeling the pain all alone without comfort

What hurts the most is looking in the mirror and hating what I see
It hurts to know that I'm broken inside and tears behind my eyes waiting to fall
Hurts to know that I have no one to run too and no where to hide but within myself
Within myself I scream because I know I'm forever alone

What hurts the most is trying to fight myself to survive
Fighting all the thoughts of suicide
And it hurts to know that nobody can see that I'm lying
That I'm living nothing but a big fat lie

What hurts the most is wanting something so bad and I know I can't have it
It hurts to know that no one is around to comfort me anymore
How I miss those talks and miss those words
They were the way to my escape and he was healing the wounds

What hurts the most is that he doesn't even know
Even know how bad I'm hurting and how bad I even miss him
Feels like he has forgotten me like every other person around me
These feelings just make the pain even worse

What hurts the most is knowing I can't break free
Break free from this pain and thoughts
Cause I'm too weak to even try to break free
Slowly I swear I won't be here cause this weakness and pain is taking over me



May 10,2008