What I Wanted To Say But Never Could Poem by Mrs. Cynosure

9-10-07
I’ve tried to tell you
I’ve tried to say it
Just never could find the words to
My words float off into the distance when I’m around you
All the cleaver, and intelligent things I want to say go out the window
When I’m around you with people around us
It seems I always choke on my words
Ya I know it’s kind of childish but I just cant help it
I just want to say so many things to you but I cant say them
I can’t tell you what I need to tell you in person so maybe
My poetry can say it for me

You’re a nice, kind, funny, respectable, and mature guy
Mature enough for me not to worry about you telling everyone
What I wanted to say but never could

There isn’t a day that I don’t think
I don’t wonder
What it’s like to be with you
What it’s like to be the girl with you
What it’s like to be in your arms
What it’s like to feel your kiss
What your hand feels like against my skin
There isn’t a week that doesn’t go by that I don’t kick my ass
For not telling you what it is that I want to tell you

If I tell you I’m afraid
Of you laughing in my face
Afraid of you saying I’m not good enough for you
I’m like dirt under your feet
Afraid of rejection
Afraid of no one loving me
Afraid of being alone
But what am I saying
After all it’s you I’m talking about here
Your nicer then that

So go a head if you want to
Break my heart
You wont see my tears
If that’s what you want
I’m a big girl
I can take it
Even if the answer is no
I’ll still say that your one of the three guy’s
Who I would ever even think about
Asking
Do you love me
I don’t think so but
Miracles can happen

I love you and would love to be your girlfriend
That is what I’ve wanted to say but never could