What Is Now On My Agenda Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

If I can not love you,
Like I did when I did...
When that was done.
And my heart had been won?
What's the point of saying it?
To make for you what does not exist,
Legit?

And just to say it,
For you to have that heard...
Is another one of your delusions,
I think is absurd.
I am not someone who will with you agree,
Because you want to gain points in popularity.

If there is something I do not feel...
Saying it over again in my head,
Is not going to make what is not there real!
Oh no.
I know the difference between a horse and a pony.
I'm not a pretender.
Nor am I phony.

Like I said...
And please allow this to sink,
Into your thick head.

IF I can not love you,
Like I DID when I DID?
Do not try to convince me,
In time I can.

I am not seeking assistance from you to prove,
There is something I need from you to do!
Discussions to heal or mend past mistakes,
Are not going to replace what is now on my agenda.