Why Am I Trying? Poem by ESPN CHICK

Been trying to put my body back together
Picking up the pieces along the way
Trying hard not to cry
But these emotions are taking over me

I don't know why I'm trying
Cause its impossible to pick up the pieces
No matter how hard I try
I won't ever be whole again

It feels like I can hardly breathe
Feels like theres no air around me
And all that surrounds me is pain
Squeezing me tightly

I keep asking myself why even try
Why even try to put myself together again
When I will fall apart all over again
Am I that desperate to be whole

Am I that desperate to be pain free
And not wonder about anything
Just tired of worrying my life away
And tired of crying myself to sleep

January 14,2008

*not the greatest...but..o well