Why Did I Do That? Poem by Heart of Ice Die Die Die

I shouldn't have done that.
This feels all wrong.
She'll tell someone
and nothing will ever be right again.
I can't handle this anymore!
I just want it all to STOP!
Sick of all this spinning around in my head,
I jsut can't take it!
Make it stop, make it stop, make it stop,
MAKE IT STOP!
I can't trust anyone anymore.
I really, really wish I could.
Everyone is turning on me.
I don't,
and can't
control my heart
and unless I start,
it WILL kill me.