You Are 'Never' Going To Change Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Here it comes, again.
That same denial I make attempts to forget.
The same one about my missing someone loved.
Someone I am trying my best not to admit.

Why me?
Why can't you just leave me alone,
And be about your own business.
Here I sit alone for a few minutes.
With the thought of this on my mind.
And then I believe from me those feelings go.

And then when I 'think' the coast is clear.
Those feelings come again.
They without notice re-appear.

So I pick up the telephone.
Blocking out my number before I dial.
Knowing those feelings once had in me are gone.
To announce very quickly to 'whoever' answers...
That the number I dialed was wrong.

Why me?
I find I am asking myself this,
Constantly.

Here it comes, again.
That same denial I make attempts to forget.
The same one about my missing someone loved.
Someone I am trying my best not to admit.

So I pick up the telephone.
Blocking out my number out before I dial.
Knowing those feelings once had in me are gone.
To announce very quickly,
The number I dialed was wrong.

'Why can't you just leave me alone? '

Excuse me?
Didn't you here me say...
I dialed a wrong number?
You are 'never' going to change!