When fear lurks,
The shadows come to life,
Swaying to and fro.
Each dropp is a crying child,
A beaten woman,
I grin when i see the deep red,
I cry when i think of what i have done to myself.
Each night before i fall into the depths of sleep,
Not to God,
Not for health.
And when i fall into his gaze,
Down i look, scared into a daze,
Anyone who knows me knows,
My heart belongs wherever he goes.
The blade softly touches my skin,
Just a slight prick and all is lost.
It slides away leaving a gap in both my skin and heart.
Inside of my blood I release my pain.
My love is so strong,
For me to live,
You must be happy.
When you smile with her part of me smiles,
'I don't want to leave you guys.'
Words uttered in pain.
Your confused face disgusts me.
Your long pale body
I'm sorry for letting you down,
Crushing your dreams,
Not being all you hoped for.