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When fear lurks,
The shadows come to life,
Dancing demons,
Swaying to and fro.
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Each dropp is a crying child,
A beaten woman,
I grin when i see the deep red,
I cry when i think of what i have done to myself.
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Each night before i fall into the depths of sleep,
I pray,
Not to God,
Not for health.
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And when i fall into his gaze,
Down i look, scared into a daze,
Anyone who knows me knows,
My heart belongs wherever he goes.
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The blade softly touches my skin,
Just a slight prick and all is lost.
It slides away leaving a gap in both my skin and heart.
Inside of my blood I release my pain.
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My love is so strong,
For me to live,
You must be happy.
When you smile with her part of me smiles,
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'I don't want to leave you guys.'
Words uttered in pain.
In tears,
In silence.
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Your confused face disgusts me.
Red eyes,
Messed hair,
Your long pale body
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I'm sorry,
I'm sorry for letting you down,
Crushing your dreams,
Not being all you hoped for.
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When i am released from this body,
I want my friends to have it.
And i want them to know
They are the only reason i stayed alive for so long.
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I'm sorry that I finally gave up,
But you see,
I hated life!
Nothing appealed any more
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The blood flows like never before,
But this time its not from my wrists,
Its different blood
Its from the part of me I have dedicated to you.
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My Ipod play's loudly,
I torture myself by listing to songs of love.
I tug at my hair,
But concentration is no longer a possibility.
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From nothing this powerful love became,
But when i watch you watch her I die.
When i look in your eyes i feel my pain,
So many tears for you each night i cry.
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Hope is forgotten,
And love is lost
Cheeks are sodden,
And feelings are sold at any cost.
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I sit in the car,
Waiting,
Hating,
Burning with coldness.
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She stands in a room,
A bright room,
Filled with bright girls,
Happy girls,
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How can one person have such a hold on me?
If i had the key i would gladly unlock the chains keeping me to him,

Never have i cried a happy tear for him,
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I am not change,
Nor am i fear.

I am not a sinnless soul,
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I am a whisper of wind,
A floating leaf,
A lonely tree,
A bucket of rain.
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