In this apparent state of calm:
Inwards—like eaten by worms—alive!
There is no remedy to heal—no balm:
Although I try; although I strive.
Day by day, I am more consumed:
I tolerate the pain—till no pain;
The wrecks of yesterday, the doom,
I sense them now: —it is insane!
If once I knew myself, today I am lost;
A vague remembrance passes in mind:
Sometimes, I do believe I saw my ghost
Somewhere in a dream, I fail to find…
I do exist around; but actually, I do not:
I have neither eyes for beauty nor heart for love;
I do not shine; life is a distant dot;
With time I flow…far, far above.
Pride does not define my nature,
Yet, in isolation, there is a sort of it:
In loneliness a wounded heart to nurture,
And pride to take in it—reality to split.
Cruelty towards myself—a free choice I've made:
Through repetition, malicious tortures to endure;
Vulnerable and exposed my final state,
Till the essence of my spirit's purged and pure.
This state of calm became my disposition:
I wear it quietly—it fits my inner senses:
This apathy has no suspicion
That nothing enchants the senses!
I do exist around but I am not: I have no eyes for beauty nor heart for love; I do not shine, life is a distant dot; Myself with time I flow...far, far above........so touching and impressive. Brilliant poem shared. Thanks for sharing.
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Illness! ! I wear it quietly. Grief! ! ! Love and pain. Thanks for sharing this poem with us.