Anthony Han

Rookie - 7 Points (April 19th 1992 til infinity. / Monterey Park. Raised in H.H.)

Collapse To Relapse - Poem by Anthony Han

I knew it was going to happen
When the sand shifted to begin
Tragedy without suffice on route 66th
Flashing before my life or was it 55th
Memory frozen locks
Temporarily given shocks

Glass crashing out the terminal
Head spinning in the tunnel
Loss of control to be in flow
Time to grasp a heavy blow
To my heart it sank as we skit
Beats unnatural rolling unfit

Flying out of broken windows
Oh no were going down shallow
Upside down feeling so small
Release the belt falling on call
Gaze to my left see my father bleeding
Dust subsiding its all moaning

I knew it was going to happen
That's why I buckled his
Five minutes before this
Far to be without a reason
As i wonder how to give in
Wipe the bloody eyes
See the diesel pouring into mess

Cannot find a open hope of light
Cannot see a way out of what might
Be the end of happiness
Be the tender loneliness
Glad it wasn't true
As a helicopter flew
Over us like a angel far above
Came to save some people far below

Who went down stream
Later that day my frame was in pain
Lungs coughing earth
Only clogging beneath
Knew it was going to happen
To my disbelief
Turned out real fluff

As now I peek
A new destiny to seek
Wouldn't have been here
If it weren't there
That we went through
Passing such a rough

I knew it was going to happen
But I didn't know why it had happened
Hoping never lightened
Sitting as I'm frightened
Crashing never brightened
Taste like nails in my mouth

Feels like I'm sailing without
Any idea of a path
On Anyone's behalf
Felt like I was dying
Felt like I was nothing
World collapses
As I go through relapses

Some days somewhere
Can't go anymore
Collapse to relapse
Collapse to relapse
Collapse to relapse....


Poet's Notes about The Poem

This write goes a while back when my family and I were on the way through to the grand canyon. It was in 2003 when I was in the fifth grade. Complications arrived and caused the Chevrolet adventure mini van we were in to skid flip and crash landing upside down. Of most of my poems this one is personal and accurate in all its lines to what happened in my eyes. That entire year was probably the worst year of my life. Our pet chickens were killed by coyotes, my father was in a coma for about 47 days I believe and at the same time we were still struggling with the family newspaper business Chinese Consumer Weekly. I at the time had to try to pass the fifth grade and cope with the problems and tragedies that piled within that year. It changed me drastically, and my constant thoughts were what if I had not buckled my father's seat belt so randomly as I did, what If i did not buckle my own when I unbuckled mine and went to do his. Other than still feeling the flashbacks for a good 2 years and recovering thanks to acupuncture of one of the best doctors I ever met.

Comments about Collapse To Relapse by Anthony Han

  • Sharad Juneja (4/9/2012 10:34:00 AM)


    very intense.............. u left me speechless (Report) Reply

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  • Hans Vr (12/28/2011 6:25:00 AM)


    I pray for you, my friend. Keep writing, your poetry is good. (Report) Reply

  • (12/27/2011 1:00:00 PM)


    Like it, a great poem, a great write.
    May i invite you to read my new poem called,
    Avoid.
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Poem Submitted: Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Poem Edited: Tuesday, August 7, 2012


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