Destroyed By A Love Poem by K J

What would you do if I went away,
what would you do if I took my life today?
Oh I know you well, you'll cry your tears.
Occasionally you'll miss me through the years.
And bringing me up from time to time,
you'll cry out loud why, why, Why?
But the thing I'd really like to know,
the thing that you will never show,
is how many of those tears will indeed be true,
and how many will be because you feel you have to.
Will you be surprised when the pain fades so fast?
That there was so little to begin with in fact?
And even though you feel only numbness within,
will you put on a good show of suffering?

I can see you now all dressed in ebony,
holding to your face a kerchief daintily,
silently bowed as phony prayers pour from your lips,
held steady only by others' reassuring grip,
others too duped to see through your disguise,
too easily fooled by your sobs and sighs.
Will you do your best to prove you loved the most,
and will your grand performance steal the show?
Convincing all that no one was closer to me than you,
that nobody else can feel quite the way you do?
Until when you think you've done your duty,
when you've convinced everyone of your misery,
enamored everyone with your great piety,
will you simply turn and walk away,
and leave my grave barren, cold and walked no more?

But I won't feel the change I'm sure,
for you already left me long before.
It's been many moons since you turned away,
and many moons since, have I felt this pain,
till at last I can't take it anymore,
and I'm left here standing at death's door.
So now I take this leap, my final fall,
destroyed by a love that encompasses all.
And the irony is that I do this for you,
my final act of love so true,
keeping my promise of giving my all to you,
I surrender this life because inside I know you want me too