Dont Wanna.... Poem by Dislocated Heart

Thoughts I couldnt write.. yet, I get on this site, and all my emotions pour into expressions...

My fingertips tap away.. endlessly...
making all my thoughts clear.. when I'm confused.. lost..
no idea what exactly I am truly thinking..

My diary....

Today was the day..
I thought bout you most...
I was never a type to listen to country..
I'm on the radio station..
listening..24/7..
funny how you changed me..

with my friends.. laughing as loud as can be..
Movies, mall, food, home..
all I could do.. was think of you..

I got a crush on a girl..
funny, wild, beautiful and just right...
silly me... couldnt even say what I felt..

My friend of a year.. calls me up.. asked me out..
lost with no words to say..
I tell her I gotta go.. I'll talk to you later..
an a-hole I feel..
blowin her off..
finally sitting her down.. telling her it'll never be..
she isnt for me..

Friend of almost a year.. she falling for me the moment her and I spoke..
jealous of all my exgf's.. she tells me..
I thought she was playing..
she looked at me with a grin.. 'Silly boy... dont even know I have feelings for you....'

Me.. I looked at her.. damn... a tired look on my face..
She knew something was wrong..
she knew you were on my mind..


I love one... still...
I like one... now...
I dont wanna fall in love again...