Essence Poem by Deborah Cromer

I live to know you, I find survival in just your very thought
I think back and remember the magic to my life you brought
In the beginning each moment we spent was so warm and nice
To be held by you and wrapped in your arms, I never had to think twice

Next to your heart with your big, strong hands tenderly holding me
I was alive and free, the way I have always wanted to forever be
I have thought of you so much, I can't begin to count the times
Pages and pages, I have been controlled and conquered by my rhymes

So often I miss you, it becomes such a deep seeded and deadly pain
Hurting, torturing me without mercy, the scars for my lifetime will remain
Each day I fight for one more breath to somehow live
I lost you, you left me, for myself I cannot forgive

My fault for not knowing you had stopped loving me
I had no clue you had no more feelings, blinded I just could not see
I believed in your words when you would whisper in my ear
I trusted in your touch when you would pull me near

Loving, precious words that we together were specially meant
To be as one forever, that our love was heaven sent
I felt I was yours, yours to have and to hold
Caring for you always, until we grew so very old

Family, taking each new day together as a unit whole
I saw only us in life, I felt and believed it from my soul
There were problems yes, but I knew we would be okay
That working hard we were making it through each and every day

Difficult and crazy, I only worked longer and harder still
Holding on trusting in true love, always with all of my will
Never did I imagine that you were finding someone new
Never did I think that I would be living and breathing without you

You told me once that I was pushing you away
I think now that was your reason, only because you did not want to stay
I know now that our trip to San Diego was not what I thought
By then your love had stopped, wondering if you could tell me or not