I'M Sorry For My Suicidal Note... Poem by Cena Rose

I'M Sorry For My Suicidal Note...

Good bye, Good luck, and I'm sorry
The bloods rushing to fast
I can't plug it
So now I will chug it
And my pills are blocking my door

Don't wait, Say goodbye, and I'm sorry
It's filling my empty stomach
I saw my life
Gave into my strife
And the bottle is my only resolve

Don't stop me, Don't cry, and I'm sorry
now I'm going triple fold
The knife is now in my hold
As I rake this across my skin

It's okay, Don't look back, and I'm sorry
It tastes just as nasty as you said
I wrote this note
Thinking you needed a coat
But I guess I'm still leaving you cold

I'm fine, Stop listening, and I'm sorry
I guess it was as bad as you thought
As I closed my door
And scattered my instruments on the floor
I know I will never sing anymore

Don't worry, I can't tell you, and I'm sorry
All my secrets you will never know
As I scream silently
And give up finally
And the blood coats the carpet

Don't give up, It's not worth it, and I'm sorry
I guess all my advice was useless
I ended up losing
And ended up choosing
The death of a lost and stupid soul

Don't try, I'm not listening, and I'm sorry
I wanted to give to the world
But now I'll be dead
Already in my head
And I'm almost done with suicide note

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
My visions starting to blur
I must hurry and write
And with with all my might
End this suicidal note

I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry
I don't see that vision of light
I guess God's left me, that's fair
And I must despair
Now the torture, I guess, must begin

I'm truly sorry, truly sorry, truly sorry
My hands feel so numb and dead
I must leave soon
I'm headed toward my doom
I think life still wasn't worth this

Forgive me, I'm sorry, forgive me....
I must say I'm sorry you've found me
But the sky is stil as starry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
So please, tell everyone I'm so sorry

This was written by me, but I'm close, but I havent totally given up, this is just what I'm thinking....

Emily Oldham 20 September 2008

It brought tears to my eyes. Fantastic, you're really talented. You CAN'T commit suicide! Don't, even if you're really depressed... it's a waste of your poetic talent and a waste of your life. Don't do it! Athena ***words will change the world***

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Shane Clift 17 June 2008

Help is available take it from someone who knows. I have the scars to prove it. One time my smile did not glow. Take a moment to read a couple of poems I wrote. I feel your pain, I really do. Still fresh in my mind its been rather recent. Still fight it every day. You recognize your depression you can see it in your words, that is half the battle. Here I am a total stranger willing to listen. Poetry is therapy. Take a deep breath and exhale. Dont be afraid to ask for help.

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Lexi Smith 17 June 2008

You can't commit suicide with talent like this. This poem is amazing... please keep writing

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