Imagined Discourse Of Thoughts Poem by Eila Mahima Jaipaul

Without you,
I always seem to have more courage than is good for me
you supply me with caution
but not this time...
I will need you
and you will not be there.

So I'll wander, searching for you
not knowing why I feel incomplete
My imagined discourse of thoughts
leaving me alone to suffer.

I wanted us to be together
like two halves of a whole.
Now all I hear
is a barely audible murmur
of what could be my life.
It might as well have been
the wind in the leaves