Life Journal. Poem by Dislocated Heart

seriously.. this is like my journal..
for everyone to see.
not a secret to hide.
not a thing.. i wont define.
this is my life.
i fell in love twice.
both ended with heartaches.
she cheated on me twice.
i thought it would never happen again.
but the second time was worst.
she cheated and left without a word.

never felt this alone in my life.
i can tell you.. nothing in my life has ever gone my way.
things i want.. just isnt in my fate.
i dont belong.
even my parents told me so.
i guess i was all wrong.
i shouldnt even have been born.

all my life.. i've been put down.
i laugh it off..
but its tearin me down.
you dont see the scars.
the ones that know me..
i let them see what they want.
no one has ever seen the real me.

i dont seem to have a talent.
i dont seem to have faith.
life is just misery..
with bumps and problems in its place.
death will run its course.
i feel myself die a little each day..
my heart gets weaker..
my head gets light.
i dream more often..
i dont feel pain like i use to.
i guess its all fading away.