Midnight Poem by Alecia Nak

Here, I go again.waiting for midnight to strike its fear.
Eyes droop, far enough that cause me to see illusions
Slowly my body shuts down, a few to many seconds
Someone comes knocking at my heart, ....far to hard
I opened my eyes to only realize that my heart was-
beating effortlessly for you. Even though I kicked you
out you keep coming back, knocking and ringing --
at the strike of midnight. Waking me up for only to -
make me get up and make my heart beat for you-
The thought of you is not only pleasure but pain---
thinking of you is like thinking about suicide; romance-
that can cause its ones own death is terribly wrong so
wrong; I seriously do love you to death but everything
goes wrong when a word comes out of my mouth-
Nothing else can please you but your own selfish lies-
which I believed in because I trusted you-----
Why is it impossible for me to forget you? ----
why are you so important to me? --------
--------Maybe it's because your the one
that makes me happy, the only one that knows me-
deep down inside me; maybe your the only one that-
knows that I exist in this world--the perfect pick? --
Maybe I'm just afraid of being alone without you here by
my side------maybe I known you for too long
Maybe midnight strikes so you could shine off just--
for perfection; Deep down boy I don't need your perfection
All I need is your love, trust, respect, and your word that
you do want to be with me----honestly this time--
Not for my pleasure--the truth to where your heart wants
to be---Midnight--the time when I honestly hate-
because all I think about is you YOU YOU nothing-
Midnight is when depression hits me hard-------
Midnight is when dreams spin into lengths of fantasy of you
What does Midnight bring to you?