Murder Poem by Sophonie Asia Joseph

I loved him
I lied for him
Pretty much killed for him
Blood on my hands because of him
Ripped out my heart and soul when he asked me to do it
But I loved him wanted us to get through this
I am so much to blame for any of this shame
I don’t have no back
Did not stand for what was right
Cried my self to sleep so many nights
Just thinking bout that one fight
And how it forever changed my whole life
How naive of me to think he would always love me
If he did not even want our baby
Never thought it’d happen
The day I killed, but it did
My head he filled
With our problems of tomorrow
If I went through with it
Never took a day to actually sit
And think of just what he was asking me to do
Ripping out a part of my bone, my flesh?
You don’t love me
I have to live with it
Cant stand the sight of his face
And he still wants to lie with me to taste
After that it has never been the same
My heart will not mend again
It kills me every time
Please, please bring us back in time
My stomach hurt so bad, the tears were many
It was so, so sad
I can’t hate him cause I swallowed it down
So I hate me
And can’t even see
Past the tears
Inside of me
Use to be strong now
Everything’s so wrong
Troubles lie ahead
If another tries to bed
These tears that I’ve shed
Please don’t take lightly
For this is real not a poem
Out of the blue or from my head
I did this to me
Know one to blame
I take credit for this shame
I loved him hard
Were not even together
I live with the scars
While he live it up the stars
No worries pain never ends
Can never do this again
Horrible, horrible sin………………

**Many thanks**
AsiaJay