Oh God (Hey Parmaatma) , An Anti-Love Poem By Michelle Tea In Hindi/Urdu Translation Poem by Ravi Kopra

Meri peeth pe paani cho raha tha
magar jab tera telephone aaya
main tere paas aaya,
chaltay chaltay thakaawat main
main saans kho baitha
nahin, main bhaagta hua nahin aaya,
main cigrut khoob pee raha tha
pehlay ki tarah.

Car main fir ek aur bhaddi si jhaphi
jab mera chera teri gaaloN pe tukraaya;
choDtay huey baDa dukh mujhay ho raha hai,
kitna sundar prasfootan tha
jo peD se le kar tum khaa sakti thee.

Lakin tum bhookhi na thee.
Sara din ye mehsoos kartay hue
k hamara rishta ab khtam ho raha hai
ye paiti k khinchaav se bhi baD kar bura lag raha hai;
itni dil-kashi jis ki zaroorat na thee
fir se fisal kar chali gayi.

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Oh God
BY MICHELLE TEA

spilling water from my back,
you call and i come.
that exhausted walk to reach you
breathless and no i didn't run
to see you, i've been smoking
too much, same thing.

another awkward hug in the car
as my face smashes your cheek
that i can feel it leaving now
is the saddest, a beautiful eruption
you could have picked it off the tree
and chowed

but you weren't hungry.
feeling it dying away all day
much worse than the straining
against the leash, another gorgeous
thing that should not have happened,
gone again.