Rebelling And Surrendering Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Treasuring every moment spent with you, feeling your
presence standing within, filling me with an uncond-
itional love no matter what I did.

Being constantly amazed at your intellect, sense of
humor, innocence and what you call common sense, en-
joying everything we do together.

At times allowing you to dictate and tell me what to
do, but not always, for it would get to me when you
expected me to do it.

Rebelling against you, going and doing what I wanted
instead of what you expected me to do by listening to
what you'd tell me.

Feeling the need to let you know that you could not
boss me around and get away with it, nipping it in
the bud so to speak.

Although at times having the upper hand, not giving
an inch, making me do what you said, causing me to
feel sexcited, thrilled, then squashing the feelings.

Freezing inside, not able to say anything, just could
not speak because of something, maybe fear, not sure
yet how I felt deep inside, no one has ever known of it.

Because I felt embarrassed and yet rebellious at the
same moment, going against you, yet listening, al-
though not wanting to, a mystery I have not yet figured
out any answers to.