Refused To Believe Them New Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

One accustomed,
To making excuses...
Will always be heard,
Accusing another...
Of not accepting new excuses,
Like others have done.
One listening remembers...
To have been used.
Others empathetic,
Have as yet rejected or refused.
To believe them new.

'You should not be so harsh,
In your assessment...
Of someone obviously distressed.
And torn in different directions.
To leave them stressed.
Without any rest to get.'

~I know.
Each night I find it difficult to sleep.
I awaken in cold sweats.
Regretting what I've done.
Unable to shake away,
The remorse I so deeply feel.
The pain. The anguish.
The moments of unrelenting sorrow.
Only I know how unbearable it is.
I pray to God my misdeeds done,
Will one day be forgiven.
And again I am free to live my life.~

'So...
In others words,
You actually could care less.'

~Well...
Your choice of words are not mine.
However...
I was hoping,
It wouldn't be that easy to detect.
But I will confess,
The caring less of others...
Who have shown me,
Ways they have done it better...
Than I ever could,
Leaves me comforted to know...
I too can achieve that same feeling.~