Being pulled back into to uncertainty.
Trying not to think about, what it means.
I hate it when I feel like I'm running away.
Putting on a brave face.
Trying not get hurt.
Holding on just barely by a thread.
And the cliffs is so high.
Would be the fall be endless.
So afraid to commit.
Deciding if it's worth it.
Why is it I can't fix what is broken.
Why is it now I feel so vulnerable.
Why do I continue to put myself in so much pain.
Erasing every single memory.
If it was only that easy.
Silencing the heart that's screaming.
Facing a down my worse demon.
And when the truth finally shakes loose.
It will be a relief, no matter what it might be.
I'm different now, I don't mind rejection.
It's better than watching and waiting, and debating.
I'm asking because I need to here those words.
I need to reaffirm what I think I already know.
Before my emotions take over.
And I make a move that I really shouldn't do.
Trying so hard not read too much into it.
Trying let it all go.
A current that will continue flow.
Cool water upon my face in a summertime breeze.
I'm awake, I'm alive, and I'm happy.
I will not allow myself to be torn down.
Not by anyone not now.
As alone as I might be in this world.
Today, tomorrow, and for the rest of my days I'll be proud.
Pulling off that shroud.
A hidden hollow.
Climb inside with me, and see What it is that inspires.
What lights my fire.
Look at my desire, not a pinch of darkness or ire.
So go ahead, I will stand tall through it all.
I'm done pretending that I feel nothing.
I'm so done, yes this is brand new bold me.