Silent Treatment Poem by krissi b'williams

THROUGH THIS RELATIONSHIP IVE CARRIED THE ENTIRE WEIGHT...
PRAYING 4 things to get better not worse
hoping we'd be great
not that i wind up getting hurt
i carried all the burden...alone all the time
trying to make this work...fooling myself into believing everything would be fine
i cooked every night...cuz you worked so hard everyday....
i cleaned our house....bcuz you brought him the pay
I WROTE YOU LOVE LETTERS, POEMS, LITTLE NOTES....
YOU'D JUST GLANCE AT THEM, SKIPPING OVER THE WORDS THAT I WROTE...
i loved you so much...yet it didnt matter
everynight we didnt touch...made my her explode and shatter
how many times..did i approach you
and ask you what to do? '
what could i do? '
differently, or another way
you'd just turn over, with nothing to say
then i'd gather up the strentgh to move away...thats when you'd hold me, and beg me to stay
i thought things would be anew
but within a matter of days, you'd go back to being the old you
i'd put make up on, and high heeled shoes
you'd pay me no mind...do you
know how that feels
no you havent the slightest clue
bcuz everyday and night i paid attention to you
i asked you, if you loved me...you replied with yes
i'd ask if you were in love with me..you say you loved me to death
i asked you if you thought i was pretty...you tell me that i am
that i am sexy as hell, and your a lucky man..
at night in bed 2gether, i'd try to kiss you on the lips
you tell me to stop, go to sleep, just quit it
cuz im frustrated with trying...i often find myself crying...
i think you say things to shut me up...what the ****
are you just lying?
im the 1 who is always trying...
to get your attention....for you to show me some affection
im the 1 to blame...
that i sit here engulfed in shame...
i should of known you were to damn tired..that you are so beat
that you work real hard, and you need your sleep
after working 10-12 hours days...standing on your feet
it doesnt matter that im tired too, doing the chores, cooking and keeping the house clean
i offer you the massage...you yell and then tell me to go to sleep
isnt that sweet....
i get up and start packing your bags
when you tell me that im being a nag...
and then you pull me in your arms, and give me a big ol kiss
is there something that i missed...
you begin to kiss
the tips of my toes
all the way up to my lips
you can make, such sweet love to me...
yet i should feel happy, yet im filled with misery...
bcuz i know that tomorrow will only bring
the same old you, the same old thing
i should be happy, but yet im in agony
bcuz it seemed forced, bcuz i threatened you to leave
and thats the only time, you ever pay attention, or give affection to me...
i understand, that your over worked, and under paid
but i make sure each and everyday
that i show you
how much i appreciate you, and all that you do
with everything i do and say
i let you know in my own special way...
isnt that okay
YOU NEED TO FIGURE IT OUT, , WHAT WE ARE ABOUT
IN OUR CASE...IS THERE ANYTHING TO SAVE...
IF ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THEN WORDS...
THEN I THINK NOT....IM THE ONLY 1 WHOS SHOWN ALOT...
with everything ive got
and just exactly what you mean 2 me...
but im not sure what i mean to you...
i have no idea...i havent a clue...do you? '
this is my last attempt to try and get through to you
every woman deserves compliments and terms of endearment...thats a fact
they shouldnd have to beg..when it comes to love, there should be no holding back
ive learned over the years and through our fights
and all them restless nights...
that if you have to battle, to keep your relationship alive..
THEN SOMETHING, EVERYTHING ISNT RIGHT...
ESPECIALLY IF THE ONE YOU LOVE HAS CRIED A SUCCESSION OF TEARS
i can no longer....hold us 2gether
its now or never
its your decision...i will no longer compromise
and be in a relationship, filled with lies
ive carried this relationship a little to long
that i am now weak...no longer that strong...
and we are not right...we are just wrong...
how much longer can we go on...
like this... you either change or call it quits
cause you seem to give less the harder i try....
no more silent treatment
if you want me...you best start speaking
this time i stand my ground
IT IS YOUR TO CARRY THIS BURDEN, AND TURN IT AROUND