Stabbed Poem by Nancy Anyorkor AkoOdoi

Right on this bed you told me you loved me,
And for reasons unknown i believed without doubt.
Little did i know those words would enslave me,
Blinden me, and leave me shattered.
I put my heart and soul into those words
And in the process I've lost my mind.
My heart is heavy
My soul is in pain
There's a rebel lying deep in my soul
Battling with let him go and let him stay
Like its an easy decision to make
When my body still yearns for your touch
We've always wanted a perfect future together
And we lived each day like a fulfillment of our to be
As we waited for it to come so we could flea
But here i am today,
On this same bed that once brought smiles on my face
And chills down my spine, at the touch of your hand.
Memories that appear anytime i close my eyes,
Making it difficult to let go, even if i need to
I'm filled with anger and pain
My heart is racing with so many emotions
Hoping to let loose and be free
How i feel i do not know
And what i know, i can't believe.
Like a knife you pierced through my insides with those last words
And now that emptiness still remains.
I sit here with thoughts crowded in my mind
But still not the slightest idea how to move on
I built my world around you
And now it all just crumpled and fell
My heart is bleeding
My soul aches
All for trusting

(February 11,2015, Sheridan Avenue, Bronx, NY)