Suicide Is An Option And Why Poem by James McLain
Suicide Is An Option And Why
My depression is as deep and dark and many mile's wide,
As the oceans I've swam, where other's have simply just died.
A little about the mental health proffesional people I've met
And yes I still see,
Cannot offer to me a safe stable place where
I can live and be free.
Are those like me not worth the investment it takes,
To save these lives in need.
Or let us die and be collected like garbage to be cremated,
Out of sight of thee, as though we were never seen.
Free from threat's, free from harm and from those whom yell
That cause me to shake, where my memory then flees from me.
Some of us need less, other's need more as I am
One of the unfortunate less from me they expect more.
When in talking to them about any of this,
Keeps me under constant threat of being Baker acted.
Leaving me worse off after being released with
Nothing and no where to go.
Worse than that there's nothing left here for me to see!
When being honest about the truama I've faced
Truama that other's have faced, trauma they couldn't endure.
Sarah Teasdale, James McLain,
Beyond hope, beyond life and your pity will send me off,
Beyond the dark sky
Out of reach of the light in this hopeless life were you live.
Hang on they say, hang on, while
All here around us other's are leaving now, having it all
Did not to them make any significant difference when if living
My life, I should have left this wrechted life much sooner.
So to you I would say that in respect to me, the sky
Is to large and surrounded the dark yes the dark has fallen on me.
Am I a coward for staying to long, I hear the bell tolling my life,
Yes it is ringing for me.
One life is all I repeatedly hear that one and all shall have.
Here alive to live with, what the church and their sins I've endured.
Society has now seen that the suicide rate reflects
Their lack of values on those human beings just like me.
The sky is dark a reflection of me, my sky is dark a reflection on me.
My new case worker took me again to,
Where they want me to live, With people who have harmed a child,
That some will do again, I would just rather man up and let this life go.
Because there's no one whom cares about me.
Are those like me not worth the investment it takes, To save these lives in need....THIS IS a good QUESTION! ! SOMETIMES i say people should not live to be too old, and i believe it! but what is too old? and aren't those who are too old able to be compared AND be judged similar [in some respects] to those who are disabled, not by age et al, but by DEPRESSION, psychosis, neurosis, and and a host of other 'afflictions'? ? ? (cont.)
(cont.) born retarded, or with AIDS, or blind? ? ? shall such be kept alive for a year, ten,80? ? WHO plays G+d, aka God aka The Big Guy (or Gal) ? btw, i don't believe in God, sooooooooo do we leave such decisions up to MEN & WOMEN? ? ? YIKES! but that is what humans have done. and so we aka society have 'allowed' James and millions of others to survive...a life with extra hardships others do not have. (cont.)
(cont.) Perhaps large mental hospitals were a better solution? apparently they became too expensive for states to operate AND 'drugs' became more able to STABLize people's moods/activities. from what James has written in poems and maybe just to me, he is frustrated, understandably, living in a 'shadow world' between 'normalcy' and 'other'. (cont.)
(cont.) HERE on PH he contributes (even if his poems are not, perhaps, widely-read. there are SO MANY of them! ! he cares deeply for his daughter's welfare, and (i assume) for his own. and why shouldn't he? ? ! He also comments on other's poems i believe (i could check) . ;) Gee, i haven't even finished reading the dang poem! (cont.)
(cont.) p.s. this poem may worm its way into August 2018's showcase. now it 'just' goes into MyPoemList. a fine one! !
(cont.) done! with the poem i mean. interesting it is that i haven't read one of James'/YOUR poems in months? ? ? and now i read this. i wonder if you, friend, are still 'with us', sort of. if not, and IF there IS another life beyond the one you left/will-leave-sooner-OR-later, i hope it is one you can enjoy and from which you can keep tabs on your daughter and, OF COURSE, me! ! ! good luck. bri ;) (cont.)
(cont.) i HOPE suicide will be available if i really want to 'use it'. btw, my mom was put in an assisted-living complex, 'made' to undergo therapy and (i think) drug treatment for a while for DEPRESSION, which she seemed to feel she did NOT have when she took the pills. hmm? maybe she knew it. but she felt doctor(s) would not increase her paid meds, so decided to end it. she lived several good years in the. living environment. (cont.)
(cont.) James, count on me, Bri, to not think ill (no pun intended....at first) of you if you defend suicide for yourself and/or others. i support its use, following some formal or informal counseling to discuss 'issues'. my mom tried it in her late 80s due to back pain. partly due to me [which i regret], she was revived from a prescribed-drug overdose. boy, was she off! ! ! (cont.)
(cont.) i knew Sarah Teasdale sounded familiar! she was a poet(ess) who committed suicide after suffering depression and whatnot. Wikipedia has a very interesting section about her suicide, in which Wikipedia says her 'alleged suicide note-poem' was published years before she died. (cont.)
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
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5/13/2024 8:24:24 PM # 1.0.0.1119
There is still hope James