The alarm went off
in my belly, I thought
but it was already blasting
much earlier on my skin
for puzzling danger
Then I would run away
strike out or clench
like an iron clamp
I was a walking fortress
disguised as a girl
longing for contacts
that I could not bear
without necessity
and hard agreements
I still don't want to
be cheated
by understanding and sweet words
my body tolerates nothing
certainly no expectations