Trying To Center Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Holding all the pain and hurt inside, trying hard not to
cry, trying to be brave.

Centering on individual leaves and other tiny bits of life,
attempting to desperately hold on to any part of it.

Everything seems to be falling apart, nothing makes much
sense anymore, everything is being taken from me, even my
life.

Am I supposed to put up a good fight, and die anyway? Tell
me, what do I hope for? What do I have faith for, if only
to have it and die.

There is no more meaning, all has been taken, I give every-
thing away gladly, hoping maybe something will be forthcoming,
maybe something good.

Life stands behind me now, it has been lived, anything more
will be with God's blessing as I wait patiently for His
decision.

Loving Him, seeking Him, living each bit of new life as it
comes to me, just from Him.