What Brings A Smile To My Face Today. Poem by Dislocated Heart

for some odd reason.
today i just have a smile upon my face.

no more fear.
for i have feared enough.
no more tears,
for i have cried my heart out for you.
no more losing,
cause i already lost everything.

only now, i gain.
gain what it is called love.

i was so scared of losing you,
thats i lost myself in that process.

once, someone told me.
dont hold on too tight, cause it might just slip out of your life.

yesterday, i finally saw it through.
the meaning.
the feeling.
everything.

today, when i woke up,
my heart started pounding.
hoping i still have you, yet not hold on too tight.
giving you space just enough, so that i could say,
hey i missed you. ohh and by the way, i love you.

yesterday i got so jealous,
you guys got alot in common.
but hey, im done being mad, sad, and feeling like i didnt do enough.

if you love me, you will stay.
if you dont, then why try anyways.

your special girl you are.
but i have done everything i could.
and i will continue to.
because my feelings arent fake.
they wont just go away.

done with jealousy.
on and forward with happiness.
this is what brings a smile to my face today.