I know the words I'd like to say to you...
to give thanks for all that you've done.
But each time I try to say the words...
they escape me as fast as they come.
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Shadows dance on the walls as I lay next to you,
I'm hypnotized by your breathing as you sleep.
I feel an overwhelming sense of peace within me,
which has caused a single tear to roll onto my cheek.
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Closed eyes can see,
lips upon lips.
Thoughts empty of resistence,
bodies filled with urgency.
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I've tried to write these words,
so many times before.
To say the things that are in my heart,
to the man that I adore.
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I have loved but one man in my life...
one man that I loved who didn’t love me.
I tried to get him to open his eyes,
but his eyes were shut and too blind to see.
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For all the days of my life...
I will love you.
I will love the beauty of what was meant to be,
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As we each said our last good-bye...
each mistake rolled through my head.
I tried so hard to block them out...
all the ugly things we said.
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When love becomes affliction,
there's not much one can do.
Despite the way you don't love me,
I'm still deeply in love with you.
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I close my eyes to see
your lips upon mine.
Your thoughts empty of 'I shouldn't'.
your body full of 'I must'.
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Somewhere in the darkness...
buried beneath the debris.
There's a soul that's been lost...
the one that lived inside of me.
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