Have you ever understood my life
How I tried to end it with a knife
But before this trial and error
When I first knew I was a failure
I grew up not knowing my real parents
How they didn’t care, and let me from there hands
Into somebody else’s, this is where it all started
Where my life became a movie, an R rated
Being picked on for being an ugly geek
Getting beat with pipes and boards, slapped on the cheek
And you’d think this would be a bully
But really it was the opposite, it was my family
No love for the reject, no love for the outcast
Lets just hurt him, embarrass him, give him a past
My whole life has been this, or something close to it
Until I thought I could fix it, time to abandon ship
Pop pills, cut my neck, none seemed to work
Maybe I could stab my self with a fork
Jump off a building, or stand in the highway
I just had to end my suffering, somehow, someway
But it never succeeded, I never left this earth
I’m still here, broken and needing rebirth
So I am someone else, someone with meaning
Somebody that’s loved, somebody with feeling
But that wont happen, ill live someway or another
So now you can ask yourself, have you ever