A Poisoned Rose Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

Can't you see the wounds your inflicting.
I'm just trying to heal.
And you continue to attempt to burn my candle at both ends.
It's indefensible, no matter the reason.
Can't you see I'm stuck.
And I don't want to be anyone's savior.
Not today, not tomorrow, not any day of the week.
You want attention stop trying to kill yourself.
Stop denying your body what it really needs.
A moment of rest.
A moment too just catch your breath.
A sober self.
I can't watch, I can no longer help.
Not with all the love I hold in my heart.
No matter the amount strokes to ones ego.
It changes nothing, as long as you continue the habit.
A drug induced state to rehiblitate.
That's not me, oh that's not me.
I won't be the enabler breaking bread with you on the table.
You continue to say your gonna quit because your too poor.
That's not enough, those words mean nothing, an empty promise.
Just another day of feeding the addiction, the affliction.
Suffocating, exasperating, I can no longer breath when your near me.
I want to grab a hold of your soul and give you a good shake before it's too late.
One day will be the last.
With sounds of sirens on the way you will not wake.
Breaking the bad news too your children.
Do you truly think I ever want that.
Or bare witness to any of it.
Keeping my distance, trying not feel, growing numb to the talk of possibilities.
Your so God damn selfish.
And you can't even see.
A blind spot with sun glaring in your eyes.
I get it, you think you're your own doctor, an know better.
Living in complete denial.
Well I won't hold your hand through it.
I won't tell you it will be all okay.
Kick it or don't but once I'm gone I won't be coming back.
I'm not about to fall into your relapse.
It's a choice you have make, as well as I.
Separation by the required high.
A fix just to get you by.
Surviving is not living and I have to say no.
I can just no longer be that forgiving.
More then one chance to do right by others and yourself.
You no longer have anything to offer that I want.
I can't live within walls of daily horror show.
Never knowing what gonna happen next.
Murder, suicide, theft, assault, an occasional o.d. I will not have anymore of those memories.
Those nightmares will not be my dreams.
Down the rabbit hole all alone.
I will miss who you were not who you are.
Just another lost soul sucking on vapors of a previous life.
It's so sad too see, as amazing as you were.
I was jealous, I was envious, of him everytime he was with you now all feel is pity as you walk alone.
There can be no love for those who no longer love themselves.
Your are now your own victim.
But good bye my dear.
For there was never a chance for anything to grow.