Clearly Unfocused Poem by krissi b'williams

I FEEL it in the change of the air
I KNOW something or someone IS REALLY THERE
I feel as THOUGH
THAT SOMEONE or something is following ME
IT HAS A HOLD and WILL NOT LET GO......
and im not sure if i want it to.....
i f the something or someone is you............
as odd objects appear........
right before my eyes....
then suddenly disappear.....
without a reason why........
without a hello nor without a goodbye...
and the harder i try.....
to find the mysterious cause....there is an indefinite pause.....

SO I BACK AWAY.......TO LISTEN TO WHAT THE SILENCE HAS TO SAY
THE DEAFNESS HAS BEEN SO LOUD SINCE YOU WENT AWAY...
grasping onto memories, that are holding on to you
i close my eyes, so i get the best and clearest view
for someone or something has caught me
and it refuses to let itself go
i havent a clue, and i really dont know
what it is...i just know i really do miss
your touch, so very much
and i miss, you passionate kiss
and yet somehow even though you
are not here,
nor there
i can feel that someone or something in the air
its unfocused, yet so clear.........
please dont go, please dont disappear
I KNOW SOMEONE OR SOMETHING IS HERE, AND THERE
SURROUNDING ME EVERYWHERE
i dont know if its my imagination, or if it is really true
but i cannot let it go, for i dont know
if it is really me, or truly you
that wont let the other one go...............