Damn! Fie! Shame On Me! Poem by MAHTAB BANGALEE

I took birth as a human
From head to toe - full and finally I'm human
Hindu, Buddhist, Jewish, Christian or Muslim
In divisions of faith and action I live on this earth differently
Truly I'm the species of Homosapiens
I'm human absolutely in the state of conscience
To know own-self by another human take I different name
Or I name this fleshy body differently

A cobbler, blacksmith, potter,
A Brahmin, Bhante, Father, Maulana, Doctor,
A politician, engineer, counselor, lawyer
A businessmen, peasant, masons, carpenter, contractor,
A Prophet, Saint, Sage, Yogi, Monk, Nun
An executive officer, employee, employer
How many I am
That Homosapiens, that human

I follow the rules of perfect or the pure rules by me
To manage and govern myself I make these rules and regulations-
for becoming a prophet, for becoming a saint, yogi, monk
I follow these blindly as the meditative one on the Vedic knowledge
or for becoming a doctor, engineer, prosecutor
I collect blindly the experienced knowledge from the past
and chain me as the hypnotized being
in several sections and subsections

That I'm, who live in the highest meditation temple of faith
and deepen me in imitation of faith -
to save own-self from the chaotic earth,
to live in a pleasant tranquil fanciful paradise.
that I'm who learn as the best believer-
Holy Vedas, Holy Tripitaka, Holy Taurat
Holy Gospel, Holy Bible, Holy Quran
and many more the sacred texts.

I'm the human
being a Maulana I'm learning the best policy of humanism
being a Brahmin I'm learning The depth of knowledge
being a Bhante I'm learning the best principle of annihilation
being a Father I'm learning the usefulness of humanity
I'm learning all of these together to be specified human!
I'm learning the policy of great soul building as the great nation in the meditative temple
wearing white or tawny color cloths.

I come to the stage to say what I learned
being the advocate I build the counseling books of rules and regulations
in poetic diction.

as low caste people, cobbler, tanner, blacksmith, potter
by all, through these introductions, I walk on this earth,
in own circle, I build kingship family
in discriminated stumbling of self-interest, I say-
o my lord, give me to this poor once again the chance.

Mason, carpenter, farmer, businessman, contractor
I fix the self portion in the stealing of secret wealth;
I build a strong wall tosteal the capital wealth at every wink.

from a scavenger to statesman all I am
I'm the human, the granddad nation of Homosapiens,
intelligent animal, the best shape of God's creation,
from the meditative to the highest peak of knowledge I am
the greatest wise soul of this greatest space,
the thinking power of the cosmic hypothesis of the cosmic black hole.
but in every accidental hurt on self-interest just I'm saying-
for such these people I am in this bad condition
and I've to live into the forgotten cavity of the abyss!

I forget when I buy thirty dresses for thirty days
I forget when I buy a lot of rich food
but eat light and keep remained foods as the leftovers!
I forget when I see a man like me eat my leftovers form dustbins!

I forget when I'm inebriated in religious speech;
as a priest on the real stage and only I shoot the shaft of holy books
do nothing of these by myself!

I forget the humanistic lecture on my political stage
when I come to the real working field!

I forget the advice of my teaching profession
when I find a youthful girl in my single gripe!

Forget I the diction of my poetry or literature
which swim on the ocean of humanity for thousands square miles
but I love to live lazily in the realm of the realistic courtyard!

Forget I the solemn oath of physician
when I am also gathered in the submerged spirit of consumerism!

Forget the exact authentic formula of engineer
The formula that is arranged for the sake of consolidation
but there are fragile in the market of reality
where enjoyment greed gives the shrewd theory to loot morality!

Forget I strong solemn oath to become a true lawyer
whereas the real helper I make my pen servant of justice
but in the realistic judgment custody
I mumble for the cash wealth!

Damn! Fie! Shame on me!
I couldn't human yet!
Though I've become the poet, the literary man, The doctor, engineer,
I've become the politician, the teacher, the Judge,
I've become the priest, the Tantric,
I've become the devotee, the saint, the sage, the yogi
I've become the executive officer, the employer, the employee
All I've become on the base of faith and action
Damn! Fie! Shame on me!
I couldn't be human yet!
Although I am of Homosapiens
Precisely human formation to see
But still the human I couldn't be!
Damn! Fie! Shame on me!


-May 05,2019 Chattogram