Embracing The Fear Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

It's never too late, my faith will never falter.
No matter how grim it might look even if I have go through hell to get where going.
On my toes.
Playing don't touch the ground.
A death rattle as a doomsday sound.
I keep thinking this would be easier, if one wouldn't have beg when so thoroughly broken.
Poison is in the pill.
As pride to be swallowed.
Don't come in contact with the humans at all costs.
After all imagine what could be lost.
An identity of self loathing?
You don't deserve it.
Your so weak.
You have nothing.
You are nothing.
The abyss of emptiness.
A declaration of unfitness.
And you want to retreat back into it.
Your shield that serves no purpose other then to satisfy that overcoming fear.
But what is it your truly afraid of.
Rejection, as I flinch over any objections.
All the pain is a mere reflection it can no longer hurt you.
Not everybody is like that.
I keep telling myself in the hopes one day I'll truly believe it.
It has never been ego that has trapped me so.
But the fear that I would never let go of.
Carrying like a ball and chain.
A prisoner in one's own mind.
Writing out futures of the worse possibilities.
Never questioning why this dark chess game plays over and over again in my head.
Well today I'm breaking free.
Today I'm wiping the board.
Today the world will hear me scream, I'm so tired of doing this all on my own.
I use to have friends, I want that again.
No matter the cost, I ready to let go of it all.
If only you can bring me some comfort in my deepest moment of desperation.
This is my first contact with her in a really long time.
I hope it goes well.
Realizing it might not.
But I won't allow myself to hide or runaway.
I will try to make the most of it.