Engineering Love Poem by Ayatullah Nurjati

We were separated for more than 7 years
When separated, there is no sense of longing clumps up, as if it's normal
Like, love and affection are hampered because of logic and ethics
Until one day there was an engineering love that you did that is manipulation, but is it true or my feelings are mixed with lust to have you?
If I had known it would end like this, it would be better if we didn't have to meet, let alone communicate from the start.
It's painful in the end though. Playing with that feeling is never fun or exciting.
The meeting did have an element of intention on your part, but if there was no God's design, there would be no meeting
This feeling of mine had soared far through the mirage of the sky but then fell limply to the edge of the earth and just realized that maybe I was dreaming and fell right behind the bed near the wall opposite the neighbor's tile
Maybe it's because this age has faded, so I don't do anything reckless to love you
Or indeed the barrier is made because of God's gift. I don't know, right now I'm just enjoying the process of loving you even though I don't have you
Loving you like longing the sun when this heart is drained by the storm

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September 23rd,2022.09: 48 AM