It Awaits Me... Poem by Dislocated Heart

Roof, of a 7 floor building,
I stare down,
ready.. set... I can jump,
All I gotta do is close my eyes and let it all go..

Funny, how a little flashbak starts in my mind..
stopping me..

With thoughts of you..
and all the bits and pieces of happiness.

Only thing I await for.. is you..

I guess thats whats keepin me here for now..
Plus my friends..
holding me down,
Harder not to just turn to drugs, and alcohol.
I try to sleep, but death is on my mind..
I stay wide awake..
through the lonely nights..

I await a phone call that seems to be forever..

when does all this end,
and finally have happiness.. for at least a day?