My Life. Poem by Dislocated Heart

laying on the floor,
stripped of clothes,
and forever more..

tears by my eyes,
blood around my wrist.

my heart locked away,
in some far away place.

if you take a look at me..
the REAL me..
you will surely bleed..
sharp as blades will come flying by.
my life is not what you want to be in..

theres much more suffering..
death in these eyes..
blood on the floor,
ink in my arms.
knife through my heart.
then you'll ever see in a life time.

feeling like this everyday,
since i was 3..
is no fucking game.

i bet you have no clue what being stepped on day and night feels like.
letting the one you truly love take over and slap you.
for a parent.. to hit you till you bleed just because they had a bad day..
and being stabbed in the back by a dear friend.

you have no clue, how it feels to take on all this at once.

and yet.. i wish all the pain in the world would be on my shoulders.
i rather take it all, then for someone else to suffer.