Clive Culverhouse

Gold Star - 31,445 Points (England)

My Walls

Poem by Clive Culverhouse

These walls are my sanctuary
guarding me, looking after me
stopping me, restraining me
my prison but my safety
where I hide
where I rule
a brick cloak of invisibility
You can't come in unless I let you in
I'm the master here
the prisoner here
the one who is suffering here
the one who is surviving here
A barrier, a security
my light house, my castle keep
an obstacle, a safety net
These are my walls
where I live
where I stay
Within these walls I'm stopping here

Topic(s) of this poem: depression, life, mental illness


Poet's Notes about The Poem

This was one of the first poems I wrote, in a dark a complex period of my life having been diagnosed with clinical depression.
The words provide levels, conflictions etc but the walls themselves, to me, go to a deeper level. That of enclosing a space, ergo my space, my head space; therefore the walls make the enclosed space finite and restricts growth. Trapped with nowhere to go but more importantly no way out. This is a psychological detriment to a way out of this (depression) . This room/enclosure that the walls keep are, in my opinion, a false safe place, giving the impression it is safe but actually blocking and restricting, feeding the issue.
I am a project assistant at an adult learning centre; the project being a mental health support group.
Among people who "understand", "been there" the group normalizes in togetherness and support - this is truly a safe place.
Support groups help and people in them help each other. The people at the support group are now my walls, but of support and solidity. Although I work there, I get as much out of it as the members do.

Comments about My Walls by Clive Culverhouse

  • Soran M. HSoran M. H (2/27/2020 7:06:00 AM)

    It is very precious piece of work...meanwhile the " master and prisoner" are very fine words and well used here..making paradox and giving multiple meanings to this excellent poem..thank you for sharing..it deserves 10 with regards(Report)Reply

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  • Mahtab BangaleeMahtab Bangalee (1/28/2019 3:45:00 AM)

    o alone
    loneliness
    in four walls
    closed roof
    silent dark
    i'm into me
    deserted breathing
    nothing, nothing around
    dark or active brain........../// greatly enjoyed(Report)Reply

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  • Akhtar Jawad (5/3/2018 11:50:00 PM)

    Man builds the walls if he finds him unsecured, man breaks the walls when he finds he is no more vulnerable. A great psychological poem.(Report)Reply

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  • alan brown (4/30/2018 6:43:00 PM)

    Safety within your walls a nice place to be in your life when all outside is frightening Enjoyed your poem Clive Alan.(Report)Reply

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  • Bri EdwardsBri Edwards (11/23/2017 7:24:00 PM)

    i came back here. i plan to put it into my December showcase, on my part of PH.

    any questions? just ask. your name and the poem page's link shall accompany your poem.

    thanks.

    bri :)(Report)Reply

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  • Rajnish MangaRajnish Manga (7/25/2017 10:34:00 PM)

    Wow! ! The walls within which we live protect us from so many unwanted onslaughts as well as apply some limitations. The metaphor is quite eloquent. Thanks a lot.(Report)Reply

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  • Dr Tony BrahminDr Tony Brahmin (7/21/2017 6:23:00 AM)

    Guarding, looking after,
    restraining me
    my safety
    where I hide
    where I rule
    the one who is suffering here
    the one who is surviving here
    Walls as a symbol for mental difficulties, pain and suffering from loneliness.
    The thought that i am unloved and i have no one…….. writing becomes a way out
    to present our thoughts to the fellow poets…… thank you for this symbolic poem. tony(Report)Reply

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Poem Submitted: Thursday, July 20, 2017

Poem Edited: Friday, February 28, 2020