A Father Woes Poem by Kewayne Wadley

I'm sorry my child,
I'm so so sorry but I have to go away for a while
Don't cry, show me that big boy smile
I don't know how long I'll be gone
It may be for quite a while
But If there is one thing, it's this
I promise with everything in me That I will write
and call you every chance I get.
Just the thought of being away from you
Makes me sick
I've made foolish mistakes when I was young
Plenty of them
If I could go back and change 45 minutes of my life
I'd do it just so I could see you once more
The look in your eye soon as the light hits them
I've learned the consequences of my mistakes
I swear soon as you were born I learned, not just for the betterment of myself
But for you as you became my purpose for living
You were the best thing that ever happened to me
I don't want anything to come between that and I fear
that this might
You've already grown so much
I see myself in you just as the days are long.
I know you don't understand
Jesus Christ in all the angels in Heaven's reach
I don't want to go
I've watched myself grow through you as more and more
You taught me for the better
I should be there waiting for your first steps
I should be there teaching you how to be a man
All I could ever want is your first words to be is 'Dad'
my biggest fear is that you'll only know me as a stranger
and that breaks my heart Knowing that's about to become reality
Please don't let my boy grow up without knowing his father
Please I beg of you