All Birdies No Bogeys Poem by Laquory Jones

I'll just let my words overflow
Enlightenment to the soul
Giving you something that's internal
Lately I'm just going to be honest
I just have been a bit busy
And I'm sorry if I've failed you all
I'll take that brunt of the fall

I just lost a cousin a few weeks ago
And it's not sitting right with me
So much bawling that I have to crawl
Just got a job at General Motors
While heading back to college
I just never wanted to fail you
I didn't have the heart to tell you
And for that I'm sorry
I apologize whole heartily

My mom's in the hospital I called her cell
And she's not picking up worrisome much
So much pain running inches deep
I haven't been writing as I should constantly
My mind's in a constant heap of tragedies
No wonder why so many people are
Mad at me I haven't been living up to
My potential you all have fondly put inside
Of me so much boiling up under skin
I pick up the pen and I vent
Talking to myself feeding me my own
Two cents as I find myself trying to
Seal up any loose ends
Bending upon my knees as I repent
My inner fire unrelenting

Lately I just sit and vibe
With pain bubbling up inside
Tears pouring through my eyes
As I grip my fingers around this pen
Taking a breath breathing in my
Second wind and a third
Under the moonlight
Oh Look Mom an half-moon
It passed by just the other
Night sometimes I wish that you
Were literally by my side
We'll go see it in the year 2039

I guess lately the glass has been
Half-full at the age of 29
There's so many things
That I haven't had the chance to
Tell you outright sometimes in life
Some dreams aren't meant to
Come true so many fell through
But your boy is Anderson Silva
With the Bamboo (Kicking bamboo?)
And I'm telling you this
That your boy will bounce back
No worries (With full fury)
I'm sky-rocketing at thirty
All birdies no bogeys

10/9/2020