Angel Please Guide Me Poem by Amy Ormonde

I watch as he walks by
steadily holding in
trying not to cry

He is once again faking
that smile that holds so gently
upon his angelic face

why does he try and hide it
when he knows there is someone here
that will always help him get by it

He resides in that corner
pushing out
the people that torment
the fiends that suffocate
and trample him out

he does not know that i see
the bruises
the cuts
all over his once smooth skin

One day i could take no more
and i began to walk up to him

'poor dear boy why do you hide
these secrets that you keep inside
are ones of sorrow
fear and pain
why wont you weep for just one day'

' I am here to bare my shoulder
let you lean on it
for it will not be more bolder
than to let you bare your head
if only for a moment
than let it be than'

' I am here yo help you cry,
open up let me inside
and you will soon confide
in me with all heart
I can see it in your soul
through your eyes
now please dear boy why do you hide? '

' I hide dear lady
for you shall see
god is the only one that will help me
and he with make better my sins
and i shall rest in peace with him'

'Angel please guide me
take away this pain
Anouk, my dear angel
it must be this way'

' My poor boy
why can't you see
I am here to help you be
death will not reside this pain
please dear boy
just listen to me! '

' I cannot listen, Anouk,
My dear angel
for you must see
I am no longer eager
to live this life,
you say that it must be,
but, Anouk my dear angel,
you do not love me.'

My poor boy walked away
and i cried in disstain
for what could I say
to something so dark
but sustained by beauty

Three days later
after my poor boy left
I watched in sorrow
as i saw the last of his casket

It was proped
and filled with pain

For my dear boy
took away his own pain

Now he is away
from the life we could have made

My poor dear boy
your dear angel
anouk
has one thing left to say

My poor dear boy
you showed me that day
that my heart did love you
in many a way.

(this is dedicated to my friend adam who took his own life. R.I.P.)